I sometimes have a problem when something stays the exact same for too long, so I changed up my page entirely. This new page symbolises peace. I have made peace with everything that's been going wrong. I'm letting mistakes made slide away and letting myself relax while getting work done. I'm not over anything. I've just finally accepted that what's done is done. I've been blaming myself about my brother for a long time, how I didn't call 911 when I should have, things I should have said, how much more I should have done. I've come to accept that I will never be okay with the way things went, I know this guilt I'm feeling can't go away, I've just stopped wishing I could go back, because I know it's not possible. Along with this I am taking now as a chance to say that what's in the past should be left there, it's time to move on and start new. It's never too late to change everything, for now I'm going to change my grades around, make sure homework gets finnished, and stop beating myself up about all of the little things. It's time to stop and smell the roses for a while before life gets complicated once more.Picture source: http://goo.gl/GAE4J
This is so true. I'm sorry you have been carrying guilt, but things are always meant to happen the way they we're. That may sound bad, but it's better to accept things the way they are now and move on to the future. You never want to be stuck in the past because then you can never truly move on and do something for yourself. Get your school work done and hang out with friends. Get your life on track, you'll find that you'll feel better in the long run. This year for you will probably be the last time you will truly be able to relax for a while, so relax and have fun! Life only happens once!
ReplyDeleteThanks a tone for the words of encouragement! It means a lot to me. I'll make sure to do all I can to enjoy this year. Thanks again.
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